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francine2869
Q: What is the dumbest thing you've ever done?
A: The dumbest thing that I have ever done is to have regrets and not have learned from them. To have earned more regrets after having experienced some.

Sadness, grief, disbelief, anger, joy, happiness. It's a tribute to the human spirit how many emotions we are able to experience and live with. I extend my condolences to the Kennedy family at this time, but am also amazed at the outpouring of emotion from strangers. People who have never met have the same feelings and ideals while friends can disagree on important and vital topics.
I would describe myself as a very sensitive and empathetic person. I had someone ask me the other day how my friends and co-workers would describe me and I think that they would say that I am a good listener. I may be strange, but I like listening to people tell me about their worries and their troubles as well as their joys and happiness. (I should qualify that by saying that they have to be real problems. I do not suffer the ramblings of fools.) I find it interesting to sort through the dramatic and realistic and find the thread of what actually has happened.
I wonder though if it is possible to be such a person and still express my own thoughts and wishes 'loudly enough'. If I think that listening to people and validating them, it should make sense that I would like to be afforded the same but I find that I shy away from overtly telling the world about myself. Does posting my ramblings on Livejournal contradict that, lol? Anyway, I'm glad that there is a medium that allows people like me to wade through murky waters that we don't usually try.  

Current Location: living room
Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Current Music: watching "Bend it Like Beckham"

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Q: Have you ever had your feelings hurt by an animal?
A: Yes I have. Not really by pets, but I show beef cattle in 4H and there have been a few times where I just wanted an animal to cooperate at a big show and then was hugely disappointed. Sometimes it could be blamed on the trainer (me) and not doing enough work with the animal, but sometimes the calf/cow just didn't want to work/behave and ended up ruining my day :-(

Changes at work, changes at home, changes with/about me. It's strange to be bouyant and happy about some things but dread and despair about others at the same time. The power of the human brain I guess, as well as its pitfalls. I wonder sometimes if it wouldn't be easier not to have gone to university and have the world knowledge that I do. How can I enjoy food when I know that millions of people are starving? How can I do my job and drive around when I know that my car's exhaust is contributing to global warming? Someday a doctor will develop a frontal lobe 'off' switch to control worrying. I don't see it coming soon though. 

Current Location: kitchen
Current Music: none

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Okay, once again it's been a while since I last posted. A long while. I don't know why I keep promising myself that I will write more often and then I don't. I am a writer and whether it is fanfiction, a letter to someone or a journal entry, the simple act of writing words is a comfort and a relief. I'm also in a state now when writing will help me through some things. Hopefully I can be as interesting and entertaining as some of the members out there, but I'm not putting that much pressure on myself. I just want to be able to prove to myself that I can stick with something and not push it aside or procrastinate. To that end I'm going to write what's happening in my life but I'm also going to try and answer the "Writer's Block" question that is posted. That way I can't say I didn't have anything to write about.

Q: When you need to make a difficult decision, what kind of resources do you consult for guidance?

A: I consult the people around me first of all. I am lucky to know many people who have experienced and have knowledge of many different things so I ask their opinion(s). I also find that people can give you a better sense of something that simply reading about it/researching it can do. I try to rely on my gut instincts about decisions but also look at the literature provided and look up some of my own facts. The combination of a few things helps get a more well-rounded picture.

Thanks for reading,
Fran

Current Location: kitchen
Current Mood: discontent discontent
Current Music: Jordin Sparks -Battlefield-

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Title: Far Enough - Part 5
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Rating: PG
Spoilers: none
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Title: Far Enough
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Rating: PG
Spoilers: none

 

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Title: How Do I Breathe?
Rating: PG
Spoilers: contains references to July 3 episode.
Author's Note: I was inspired by and took the title from the song by Mario. May write a song-fic later because I think the lyrics suit Nuke. I meant this to be a short drabble but somehow found myself writing 7 pages. A muse must have been flitting around, looking for a place to land. Please enjoy.


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Title: Far Enough
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Rating: PG
Spoilers: none, if you're up to date with current episodes
Author's Note: Please forgive me if there are error's in Luke's 'explanation'. I wrote it from memory without having the clips to double check things with and I don't feel like going back and checking everything now.

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Title: Far Enough
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Rating: PG
Spoilers: none, if you're up to date with current episodes

 

 

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Title: Far Enough
Pairing: Luke/Noah
Rating: PG
Spoilers: none, if you're up to date with current episodes
Author's Note: I meant to have this posted on Sunday night before all the "break" drama but we've had internet issues. This fic could maybe fit into what's actually going on (if you use your imagination). I think that Luke's parents, especially Holden, may have some issues with what went on in New York.  And I'm slightly evil and want to test Noah a little bit. I'm hoping that all characters will end up happy in the end. Please enjoy. :-)

I was inspired by two YouTube vidoes that I've recently (fortunately) stumbled upon, the first is Nuke, the second is actually from Gilmore Girls. The first is entitled "Luke & Noah Tribute - Did You Fall Far Enough" by matrixgoddt and the other is "Luke/Lorelai/Christopher - Thnks fr th Mmrs" by luvtheheaven. I love the songs from both for very different reasons, and the editing in the second video is amazing. Even if you're not a GG fan I encourage you to check it out.
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Lead-in:
Luke: What did you expect me to do?

 Noah: You shouldn’t have turned her over to the police!

Author: Francine2869
Characters: Luke/Noah (Ameera)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 453
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Notes: Just a short piece that I thought could have occured after May 29th's episode (disregarding the phone call from Colonel Mayer)

*~*

What did you expect me to do?
 

You shouldn’t have turned her over to the police!
 

Luke brushed a hand through his hair, unable to speak at the emotions running through him.
 

Fear, anger, relief, frustration, love. They were all battling to be felt, all rushing through his body until he didn’t know what to do with them.
 

Noah had brushed by him, sighing heavily. He was now turned away from Luke, looking down the street searching for… something.
 

For once Luke knew that he couldn’t run to Noah and have him fix things. He couldn’t just fall into his boyfriend’s arms and hope things would turn out alright. He needed time alone, to think. To wonder how they had gotten themselves into this situation and how they could possibly get out of it.

He lightly touched Noah’s shoulder, but the other boy didn’t turn around.
 

“I’m going to head back to the hotel for a while. I should call my parents and let them know where I am.”
 

Fine. I’m going to go see Ameera and make sure that she’s okay.”
 

Luke felt the cool breeze of the icy words blow over him. The two didn’t speak another word as Luke trudged in the opposite direction that Noah was still staring at.

*~*

    It was a couple hours later and Noah had finally gotten in to see Ameera, to assure himself that his father hadn’t hurt her. She was fine, if slightly scared. She was as polite and calm as always, and the police had been surprisingly lenient. 

They assured the Noah and Ameera that if their stories checked out (about being married, Noah’s father escaping from prison and kidnapping Ameera, her escaping and running into Luke) they would be free to go. They’d have to keep in touch of course, but due to the fact that they were cooperating with a government official, the New York city police were content to hand the problem off to the higher-ups.

Noah had a moment to himself as he waited for Ameera to freshen up and for the police to make more phone calls, and he found himself longing for Luke. He didn’t need his boyfriend to hold his hand or anything, but his presence always helped reduce Noah’s fears and anxiousness. He also needed to apologize for how he’d treated him earlier. He quickly flipped open his phone and pressed the speed-dial key, wondering if Luke was still at the hotel. After 3 and half rings, it picked up and Noah waited to hear Luke’s voice.

“Hello Noah. We’ve been waiting for your call.”
 

It couldn’t be. The blood in Noah’s veins froze and he could have sworn his heart stopped beating.
 

“Dad?”  

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